User blog comment:LlewellynIsAwesome!/Apology/@comment-25297892-20140929151756

Okay, ehm, I don't know how to start this comment, also my grammar issues are everything than a help, whatever, I want to apologize. It wasn't easy for me to plan such a decision,ok? But during the last week I discovered by myself and being told about lot of facts I didn't know, that were determinative for my final decision, this one made of a strange sense of revenge.When I feel to need revenge on something, I lose the control of my morality,I mean, I become a complete different person than I am commonly:I'm cold,bitter,merciless and shady in this condition, I don't know why,but if I feel betrayed,or whatever,in generally,if I feel the need to revenge,I turn into my black side.I don't stop untill I reach my aim, even if there's a friendship in the game...I'm just blind and focused only on that sentiment. Now, when I was eliminated I sincerely was happy to see you were the only one to not vote for me, and that's why I rooted for you all the remaining time,but lately I discovered about your second alliance:I thought I was your closest friend in the competition and discovering you put before me Others,I don't know,broke my heart and my mind a bit...when the Season 2 started I tried to remove this harsh feeling, but the fact everyone ignored me (also you,if wasn't for me to contact you by private message) made me to fall again in the bitterness,and I developped slowly slowly a grudge on you.Eventually when you kept your promise and considered me again actively in the following two episodes I brightened up again as before,but this was two weeks ago. During the time I wait for the new episodes to come my grudge returned as soon as I read your Tyler page, where you basically stated that you were only faking to be enemy of Duncan just to gimme the illusion!At that point I thought "Wait...AGAIN?Again Welly is making me to believe things that aren't true?" but I barely managed to find a compromise and forgive you.But lately I discovered more:Kingstalk told me that you had planned in the first season to stay in the KB alliance and rid off everyone on the Ducks, the latter was me,but only because I won many immunities,also he told me that even if you didn't vote for me,you told to the Others to cause my elimination,and this was another bad hit for me,believe me!Even if it's only a game, I hate when I think something that isn't,and in this case I hated to know you posed to be my friend all that time,or just used me to rid off Others. I couldn't know whom to believe,sincerely, but I analyzed deeply everything that happened,al the different versions,all the events,and the clues I collected were in favour of Kingstalk's words. This led me to plan my payback on you, I wanted to give you back the same disappointing medicine I tasted from you..as I said before. And these are the reasons of my behaviour.

About me and you, don't you think I felt the same sensation?I immediately befriended with you as soon as you welcomed me, at the point to follow Always your shadow,especially since I joined to the roleplay, trusting your words and strategies even if I wasn't utterly agreed.It was against my interest to eliminate Dawn for example,but I did it.Then I discovered there was no real reason to do that,you told me she was in an alliance against me,and I trusted you,even if in the voting chart I never saw my name till Supreme Chef Auto...now,how do you expect me to trust someone who acted in this way?You lied,Welly,you lied on me many times,and even if you did that in a game,this was seriously a proof for me of your true colour.Ok,I didn't really hope to have become so soon your favourite friend ever,but seeing that you preferred your old friends than me during the season one left me bittered,and this sensation grew lately.But I helped you ALL THE TIME,unlike the Others,that clearly couldn't,and as reward I was told you planned my elimination in the merge.Also don't forget I did all the dirty work appearing as the evil one with my votes,that I Always casted on your suggestion,trusting you SO MUCH. Friendship, true friendship means respect and loyalty,in any case,in life or in a game, true friends Always tell the truth each other, I was utterly sincere with you, you wasn't with me.I didn't even know who were your allies.This happened again in Season 2:the first episode was enough to give me a synoptic picture of the situation.Again you were posing something that I couldn't know,until I discovered by myself.A true friend would have said:"No,I'm sorry,but I can't be the enemy of Duncan,because.." not that I was forced to read "He voted Duncan just to gave Noah the certainties that..exc.." again,repeat,even if it's only a game,a fictional situation,a stupid competition,I put my heart in it,and this means I strife Always to be competitive but never forget my promises and friends.Instead you disappointed me again,And when someone disappoints me twice it's over.I seek satisfation only in the revenge, forgetting the rest.

Now about the nomination.I don't know what exactly happened,but I made three people to vote you,the sub of Lindsay,Dakota and Samey,With me are four votes.The sub of Llindsay in private message guaranted me to have voted for you.In the meanwhile I was also contacted by a substitute of Tyler,that told me he would have voted Duncan.That's all I know.Only Stalk know what really happened, anyway the votes were made by all the members, original or substitutes,even Tyler's and Duncan's.The original announcement was 4 votes for Tyler and 3 for Samey,as I had planned,then Izzynoah gave an opposite version,causing a mess. By the way,even if the votes were undecided, there are somengs you should consider that make your elimination actually fair and square:

1)DuncanfanTD casted a double vote as anyone never did before,playing as Sky and subbing for Duncan.Honestly this vote should be counted singular.

2)We decided to nul all the subbing votes,but this didn't resolve the fact:actually the only possible votes were me,Sky,Cody and Dakota.Again a tie.

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